Words twist and tumble through my mind
But I can’t grab the right word or the right line
You’re the thought that starts each morning,
The conclusion to each day. 
here are a few thoughts that can express what i want to say..
If you were a painting no colors could express
The beauty deep inside you a rainbow, nothing less.
If you were a sculpture the clay could hardly make
Your figure of an angel without one mistake.
If you were a euphony no choir could really sing
All the beautiful music your eyes could possibly ever bring.
I was sort of hoping that you would come along,
Like the answer to a prayer and the music to my favorite song.
Like the kind of thing that happens at a special place and time,
That will change lives forever like a fantasy of mine.
The fantasy was there before but I never knew your name,
And now that I have found you things will never be the same.
These things and so many more have made me understand
that this is a once in a lifetime connection.
The connection between us, is like a circle that will never end
To leave an open path stemming into my life and for you to just walk in.
I feel so helpless,like an infant at first glimpse
I feel so humble like you’re nothing but a dream
An illusion of perfection that just couldn’t be
You’re too good to be honestly true so sweet in all ways
My vision of excellence holds within you and so I bow my head and pray
That this feeling which grows greater day by day
the Lord will guide us all along the way

Its better if it hurts…
What is expressed from the lips..said to the face..
Tears reflect the deliverance of the words that were meant to harm..That’s what took place…It feels like shattered glass..something that is unable to piece back together without showing its cracks from the past…
Unable to fix just replaced with something that was thought to create..something new..but in reality it worked like super glue…
Where one memory could recreate the wound that made the entire repair become something that never occurred..and who cared..How does one posses so much power in ones life to make such wreckage that they don’t notice what they do to the other persons life..cause strife…
We are suppose to create life not destroy it..enjoy it.. To understand ones heart..what it seeks after..laughter.love.memories of things that created smiles not things that made them feel like there’s nothing left in life to desire..hurt.pain.broken.shame…where’s does one go while walking in this path..the burden on there life..the wrath…
All caused because ones selfish needs that created one to cease..as they walk around at ease never caring of the other life and how they are now in need…in need of the love that was taken..the love that had been lost and mistaken..for something that never was…just faking…

In my life, i must say that its been quite a roller coaster. Ive found myself doing the most reckless and idiotic things ever..and knowing that i shouldnt have done it..i did..then i deal with the painful consequences and hardships of my disobedience to the Lord…Finding comfort in men,crazy parties < the fast life > and just roaming around trying to find a home..when in reality..all i was missing was the direction of the Lord. Not only did i run around like a crazy headless chicken not knowing where i was headed, I lost so much and i can never get it back. But what i have gained after it all was a new life…Ive begun to witness my life change more and more and i deepened my walk in the Lord. My appreciation for my life and all that is in it could not be appreciated anymore than i do..before i didnt see the value of what i had and wanted it all..ripping and running the streets got me no where..it was a never ending dark tunnel with a faint light at the end that could never be obtainable. Until I had looked to the Lord, he comforted me within and now i was shining brightly in his light. All of the darkness that crept up to me and shun me away and made me become a hidden shadow had faded..I smiled more and felt joy more and more as my day progressed… As my pastor had said.. Remain in Love..because God IS LOVE! if it wasnt for him we would be walking in the darkness of this world and it would consume us..comsume us to where we wouldnt know the true definition of love and we would look to things of this world to comfort us..everyday there is souls lost to the desire of these worldly things…money-clothes-fame-cars and other luxuries…what good is that going to bring us in our life if we desire that over what is needed to be focused on..our position in heaven? if all that stuff is something that drives us here on earth..why cant we place the same amount of efforts and focus on the Lord? Thats the one things that puzzles me, i once was like that..always tried to please man before pleasing the one who keeps me breathing..everyday im learning to shift gears for the Lord..where do you stand?